There’s a song by Hi-Rez the rapper (this is the only rap song I listen to because I like the lyrics), and he says in the chorus, “if only there was a place, if you could just see my face; y’all would see I’m smiling.” I thought about this line for a long time because, to me, it makes me remember the days of having to put on a smile and a facade so people wouldn’t ask me about how I felt.
When they saw my face, I was smiling. Do I regret not opening up and revealing how I felt? Immensely. I had a mental breakdown around Sophomore year thanks to all the things I had bottled up and shove down. My advice to you is pick someone you’ve known for a long time, someone who knows you. Someone you trust. If you can do that, reveal your feelings.
Contrary to what I thought, it doesn’t make you strong to bottle your emotions up. Ultimately, all of that will tear you down. So, what am I saying? I’m saying don’t let that smile be fake.